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I Give You to River by Linda Rodriguez

I GIVE YOU TO RIVER, a poem for National Poetry Month (reprinted from Linda Rodriguez Writes – April 25, 2019)



Like my ancestors before me, I love rivers. The peace of running water always calms me, watching it ripple past slowly, hearing the murmur of the water over rocks and
branches and the swish of it against the banks, spying the many lives that live along the river–fish, turtles, snakes, muskrats, beavers,   hawks, and eagles. For millennia, my people have always chosen to settle near rivers.
When I was growing up, I was taught to go to water when troubled or ill. Running water is strong medicine, good medicine. We pray next to it, and then use it to wash away whatever is troubling our hearts, minds, or bodies. Sometimes a creek or brook will work for me, but if I’m truly heartsick, I seek out a river.
This poem is another in a series of poems that I have posted to celebrate National Poetry Month. It is an exploration of this practice of going to water when troubled. In the worst kind of pain and grief, sometimes only a river can provide any release. For a healing ceremony, one needs to build a fire, say the right prayers, make an offering, but sometimes in the worst straits, it can be simply you and the river.


I GIVE YOU TO RIVER

Turning to the water for release
from my troubles, from you,
I write your name in my palm with my
finger,
then brush off the invisible letters
into the river currents passing at my
feet.
I ask River to carry them out of my
heart and mind,
carry them away from my life, remove
all that darkness
that is you infesting my mind against
my will,
replaying memories that were nothing
but playacting on your part,
though my heart tries to find excuses,
for all the deliberate pain.
I have to face it finally—there are
none.
Hard to believe, but even harder to
find
I still long for you.
This stubborn heart won’t give up.
So I barricade it, keep it safe from
its stupid fidelity,
while I wait for River to carry out
magic,
carry your name and games far from me,
set me free finally with the power of
moving water,
my own inborn element,
which carves memories of trauma from
the earth itself
and leaves wondrous scars.
Published in Dark Sister (Mammoth Publications, 2018)

The Book-Awards Game of Chance

by Linda Rodriguez
Next
week at this time I will be on my way to Oklahoma for the Oklahoma
Book Awards. My newest book,

Dark
Sister
,
is a finalist for the Oklahoma Book Award in Poetry. Needless to say,
I am both delighted and excited.



Dark
Sister

is truly a book of my heart, focused on my family and my ancestors,
and since it was published right as I went down hard with this
shattered right shoulder and destroyed rotator cuff and continued
with severe illness this past winter, I have not been able to do what
I would have wanted to do to promote this book. It essentially was
just dropped on the world without much notice, and that has broken my
heart. Consequently, seeing it get this kind of recognition from the
knowledgeable judges of a major award is wonderful. There are so many
fine books published every year that it becomes pretty much a throw
of the dice whether or not your book will have a chance at awards
recognition. I have to admit I have been much luckier in this regard
than most people, for which I am truly grateful.

One
of the happiest elements of this situation is that two dear friends
of mine are also finalists for this book award in other categories.
Sara Sue Hoklotubbe is a finalist in fiction for her fourth Sadie
Walela mystery novel,
Betrayal
at the Buffalo Ranch
,
a terrific mystery that I had the pleasure of blurbing. Traci Sorell
is a finalist for her beautiful and ALA-award-winning bilingual
Cherokee-English children’s book,
We
Are Grateful/Otsaheliga
.
We think it may be the first time that there have been three Cherokee
finalists for this book award.


Next
week, I will be traveling down to the award ceremony with lots of
anticipation and trembling. The other finalists have very
high-quality books and simply being included among them is a terrific
honor. Whatever the final outcome of the ceremony, I intend to be
celebrating in a huge way with my friends and the new acquaintances I
will make that evening. That this ceremony takes place in Oklahoma
where I have many friends and relations is simply the icing on the
cake. I intend to have one heck of a good time, with a
much-anticipated visit afterwards to Tahlequah where I spent many
summers with my beloved grandmother as a child.


So
next week at this time, give me a thought and maybe cross your
fingers for me and my lovely book, as well as for my pals, Sara Sue
and Traci. Whatever the outcome, we are going to PARTY—in a
responsible, old-lady way. Given my physical condition, I may come
back a total wreck, but I will certainly be a happy one.

Linda Rodriguez’s Dark Sister: Poems
is her 10th book and is a finalist for the Oklahoma Book Award. Plotting the Character-Driven Novel, based on her
popular workshop, and The World Is One Place: Native American
Poets Visit the Middle East
, an anthology she co-edited, were
published in 2017. Every Family Doubt, her fourth mystery
featuring Cherokee detective, Skeet Bannion, and Revising the
Character-Driven Novel
will be published in 2019. Her three
earlier Skeet novels—Every Hidden Fear, Every Broken
Trust
, Every Last Secret—and
earlier books of poetry—Skin Hunger
and Heart’s Migration—have
received critical recognition and awards, such as St. Martin’s
Press/Malice Domestic Best First Novel, International
Latino Book Award, Latina Book Club Best Book of 2014, Midwest Voices
& Visions, Elvira Cordero Cisneros Award, Thorpe Menn Award, and
Ragdale and Macondo fellowships. Her short story, “The Good
Neighbor,” published in Kansas City Noir, has been optioned
for film.  

Rodriguez is past chair of the AWP
Indigenous Writer’s Caucus, past president of Border Crimes chapter
of Sisters in Crime, founding board member of Latino Writers
Collective and The Writers Place, and a member of International
Thriller Writers, Native Writers Circle of the Americas, Wordcraft
Circle of Native American Writers and Storytellers, and Kansas City
Cherokee Community. Visit her at
http://lindarodriguezwrites.blogspot.com

Grandmother’s Basket

by Linda Rodriguez
It’s National Poetry Month, and I have a new book of poems out. Dark Sister is a book of the heart for me, in which I tell stories from my family and other spaces that really matter to me. Some of the poems, of course, are lyric poems, but with me, the narrative drive is overpowering, so most of them are stories, little and big.  Many of the stories I tell in this book are concerned with my beloved Cherokee grandmother, who was one of the strongest influences on my life. 

If you’d like to check out the book in more detail–or even order it–you can learn more about it here.


So, to celebrate both National Poetry and the publication of my tenth and newest book, Dark Sister, here is a story in a poem about my grandmother and her baskets.


GRANDMOTHER’S BASKET

I loved Grandmother’s baskets when I
was small.
They had intricate patterns and figures
woven into them in brown, black,
yellow, red, and orange.
She had different sizes and shapes,
used them for storage rather than
display.
My favorite was in reds and yellows
with a black border.
It looked to me as if woven of fire and
grasses.

I would climb into cupboards, find one,
and ask why she didn’t keep it out on
a tabletop
where everyone who came in could admire
it.
“These aren’t the best ones,” she
said
as she fingered baskets that looked
beautiful to me.
“We used to make them from rivercane,
which makes a better basket and dyes
the best,
but they rounded us up in concentration
camps
and drove us on a death march to a new
land
that didn’t have our old plants like
rivercane
so now we use buckbrush and
honeysuckle.”
Grandmother shrugged. “You make do.”

I asked her to teach me how to make a
basket
like the one I loved with feathers of
fire
along its steep sides. She shook her
head.
“It’s a lot of hard work.
First, we need black walnut, blood
root,
pokeweed, elderberry. Yellow root’s
the best yellow,
but blood root will have to do.
They’ve dug all the yellow root
for rich people’s medicines, call it
goldenseal.
Got to have our dyestuffs first.
Got to forage for most of them.
It takes lots of trips, out and back,
to get enough to make good colors.”

I knew I could do that and said so.
She laughed. “You’ve got to know
what to pick
or dig or gather. It’s like with my
medicines.
Can’t just go taking any old weed.”
I pointed out that I was learning from
her
about the Cherokee medicine plants. She
just shook her head.
“It’s not the same. I grow most of
those.
Haven’t taken you out for the wild
ones yet
because you’re too little still. Same
for dye plants.”

I nagged at her for days, begging her
to teach me
so I could have a basket of my own.
I had in mind that amazing
fire-flickering basket.
I wanted to make one just like that.
My visit was over without her ever
giving in.
I was used to Grandmother’s strength
of will.
I knew I would have to try harder next
time.

There was no next-time visit.
My mother had always hated her
mother-in-law.
Now, she won the battle to keep us
away.
Our relationship poured out in letters
until my mother destroyed them,
refused further correspondence.
Years later, Grandmother wrote me—
a letter that slipped past my mother’s
scrutiny—
that she was making a basket
one last time for me.
I knew she was very ill,
soon to die.

I don’t know who got the beautiful
baskets
when Grandmother died, especially the
one
that I loved when I was small.
Her sister and niece who cared for her
in her last illness, I suppose.
That’s fair. My parents had divorced
by then,
and my mother allowed no contact
with that family. But
a lumpy, brown-paper-bag-wrapped
package
with Grandmother’s shaky, spidery
handwriting
arrived for me after her death.
My mother opened it first and laughed.
I stood waiting eagerly to snatch up
the last thing my grandmother would
ever give me.
“Look at that,” Mother said with
more laughter.
“That ugly old thing’s supposed to
be a basket,
I think. She sure lost her knack for
that
at the end, didn’t she?”

When I was small and visiting, I knew
Grandmother already had arthritis
in her hands. That’s probably why
she wouldn’t teach me to make
baskets—
because she didn’t have the dexterity
any longer
to make the kind she once had.
I still have that simple handled basket
of vines (probably honeysuckle).
The whole thing is dyed black.
There are no intricate patterns of
flames
or anything else. It’s just solid
black.

I can see her plodding out to gather
butternuts for the black dye
and to pull the honeysuckle vines,
stripping off the leaves.
I can see her gnarled hands
painstakingly weaving under and over,
no fancy twills or double-woven sides.
Hard enough to shape
a shallow but sturdy gathering basket
for her long-unseen granddaughter.
All these years later
I have my own herb garden
where many of her medicine plants grow.
When I gather them to dry for teas and
poultices,
I use that black vine basket.
I think it will last forever.

Published in Dark Sister (Mammoth Publications, 2018)

Linda Rodriguez’s Dark Sister: Poems
has just been released. Plotting the Character-Driven Novel, based on her popular workshop, and The World Is One Place: Native
American Poets Visit the Middle East
, an anthology she co-edited,
were published to high praise in 2017. Every Family Doubt,
her fourth mystery novel featuring Cherokee campus police chief,
Skeet Bannion, will appear in August, 2018, and Revising the
Character-Driven Novel
will be published in November, 2018. Her
three earlier Skeet novels—Every Hidden Fear, Every
Broken Trust
, and Every Last Secret—and
her books of poetry—Skin Hunger
and Heart’s Migration—have
received critical recognition and awards, such as St. Martin’s
Press/Malice Domestic Best First Novel, International
Latino Book Award, Latina Book Club Best Book of 2014, Midwest Voices
& Visions, Elvira Cordero Cisneros Award, Thorpe Menn Award, and
Ragdale and Macondo fellowships. Her short story, “The Good
Neighbor,” published in the anthology, Kansas City Noir, has
been optioned for film.


Rodriguez is past chair of the AWP
Indigenous Writer’s Caucus, past president of Border Crimes chapter
of Sisters in Crime, founding board member of Latino Writers
Collective and The Writers Place, and a member of International
Thriller Writers, Wordcraft Circle of Native American Writers and
Storytellers, and Kansas City Cherokee Community. Visit her at
http://lindarodriguezwrites.blogspot.com